No Spark

Surprisingly, I'm not so enthusiastic about people's realizations and ideas lately.

Maybe its the fact that I just don't care about that now a days. Maybe I just accepted the fact that it will never be the same again or there is no hope that it will happen again that it will, once again be united. Maybe, just maybe I'm just fine with this setting.

Some of my friends told me that I should be happy about the developments and if they were on my shoes they'll be glad with that. Not that I'm not happy about the letters and all, its just that it doesn't interest me anymore. True, I'm happy that you guys still had a spot in your heart for the group but I can't explain what I'm feeling right now.

Maybe I have so many bitterness with the group. Not that I'm still hurting right now. Its just that the bruises and wounds made me to feel this way about tha whole thing. I've been into so many things without this group. I've learned to live life without them. Yeah, we've been all busy and all but admit it there are some who deliberately just don't show up because they don't feel like doing so.

There are so many times that I tried to hold on to this group, there are so many times that I tried to fix things up but we all have faults why this happened. Unresolved issues and conflicts, personal differences, some isolate themselves, some just cut the communications and some just simply drifted.Pinabayaan ang group. As for me, I'm tired of holding on in vain when people just slip away. Nakakapagod na rin eh. Nakakapagod ng umasa na "uy baka ito na ang start" and the end is wala uli.

No don't get me wrong. I love my friends. I still consider them as my friends. Nothing is changed but it just that I don't know, I can't find the right word.

Maybe I'll give it a try..a last shot.

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I miss S^2. I'm looking forward sa next out of town namin. Hmm.. di ko pa nagagawang ng blog entry si JD maybe next time. Ahahaha.

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The latest movie of Sandra Bullock and Keannu Reeves is sooo a la Moments of Love hehehe. Although di naman ganun kalayo ang years ng gap, wala lang parang I'm not saying who's the original in terms of concept pero parang weird lang na mas nauna kong napanood ang Filipino version bago ang Hollywood version hehehe.