Have you ever feel that you are no longer connected to the "world" where you thought you belong?
There are times when things aren't going your way and circumstances are pulling you down. These are the times when you reflect about your "world".
I used to think that I have a lot of friends. Friends that I thought would pull me up when everything is pulling me down. While scrolling through the address book of my phone, I only got few, then I realized that these persons are my chosen few to stay in my life. Then this feeling suddenly struck me. Most of these chosen few are not connected to me anymore. I don't know what happened but most of them just disappear like bubbles that burst in the wind. Then I wonder, is it me? Am I not a good friend? Or I just choose the wrong people? Either ways both involve change. Time is changing so people do. Sometimes it is just difficult to accept the cold hard facts that even the things you're holding on so firmly are bound to be gone.
Sometimes life can be so unfair. Ang hirap lang kasing intindihin na while nagpapakahirap akong magtrabaho makikita ko yung parents ko na kinukunsinti yung isa kong kapatid na di magtrabaho, wow they even suggested na magbakasyon sya. May times pa na I'm always complaining about my eyeglasses kasi di na sya fit for me, wala lang sa kanila as in kebs pero nung yung kapatid ko yung nagsabi sa kanila, di natapos ang isang araw napagawan na sya ng eyeglasses. Tas nung time na may sakit ako, no one from them asked me if I'm ok or kung anong masakit sa katawan ko samantalang yung kapatid ko konting daing lang sa kanila mega concern na sila. Siguro I'm jealous or whatsoever pero it is so hard to understand. Ang hirap. Then there was also an incident last saturday na minsan na lang akong uuwi sa house ang ipapakain pa sa aking ulam is yung mga ulam na di ko gusto. Parang alam naman nila na hindi ako kumakain ng ganun klaseng isda since hindi talaga ako generally mahilig sa isda at sa gulay. Parang nung lunch nagtyaga na ako sa gulay but nung gabi hindi ko na kaya hindi ko na naman gusto yung ulam. Alam mo yun kailan ko pang magdabog gumawa ng eksena para marealize lang nila na di ako kumakain ng ganung ulam. Parang waw buti pa yung aso alam nila kung ano yung gusto at ayaw. The thing is nagbibigay ako ng pera, not that nanunumbat ako, pero di ba one of the reason kaya ako nagwowork para makakain ng mga pagkain na gusto ko.Hindi bale sana kung di ako nagwowork at wala akong karapatan na magreklamo. Yun na nga to think youngest ako pero ano, ako lang yung nagwowork tas I don't feel appreciated by my own family.
Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, we often run to our friends, but the thing is narealize ko wala na rin akong matakbuhan dahil kahit ako, i feel so unconnected sa kanila.
Don't get me wrong may nalapitan akong isa. But the thing is while scrolling my cellphone while di pa nagrereply yung friend ko na sinabihan ko I felt like a stranger while scrolling names of people that I called "friends".
Now I really feel the urge to detach. To detach from my blurry "world"
There are times when things aren't going your way and circumstances are pulling you down. These are the times when you reflect about your "world".
I used to think that I have a lot of friends. Friends that I thought would pull me up when everything is pulling me down. While scrolling through the address book of my phone, I only got few, then I realized that these persons are my chosen few to stay in my life. Then this feeling suddenly struck me. Most of these chosen few are not connected to me anymore. I don't know what happened but most of them just disappear like bubbles that burst in the wind. Then I wonder, is it me? Am I not a good friend? Or I just choose the wrong people? Either ways both involve change. Time is changing so people do. Sometimes it is just difficult to accept the cold hard facts that even the things you're holding on so firmly are bound to be gone.
Sometimes life can be so unfair. Ang hirap lang kasing intindihin na while nagpapakahirap akong magtrabaho makikita ko yung parents ko na kinukunsinti yung isa kong kapatid na di magtrabaho, wow they even suggested na magbakasyon sya. May times pa na I'm always complaining about my eyeglasses kasi di na sya fit for me, wala lang sa kanila as in kebs pero nung yung kapatid ko yung nagsabi sa kanila, di natapos ang isang araw napagawan na sya ng eyeglasses. Tas nung time na may sakit ako, no one from them asked me if I'm ok or kung anong masakit sa katawan ko samantalang yung kapatid ko konting daing lang sa kanila mega concern na sila. Siguro I'm jealous or whatsoever pero it is so hard to understand. Ang hirap. Then there was also an incident last saturday na minsan na lang akong uuwi sa house ang ipapakain pa sa aking ulam is yung mga ulam na di ko gusto. Parang alam naman nila na hindi ako kumakain ng ganun klaseng isda since hindi talaga ako generally mahilig sa isda at sa gulay. Parang nung lunch nagtyaga na ako sa gulay but nung gabi hindi ko na kaya hindi ko na naman gusto yung ulam. Alam mo yun kailan ko pang magdabog gumawa ng eksena para marealize lang nila na di ako kumakain ng ganung ulam. Parang waw buti pa yung aso alam nila kung ano yung gusto at ayaw. The thing is nagbibigay ako ng pera, not that nanunumbat ako, pero di ba one of the reason kaya ako nagwowork para makakain ng mga pagkain na gusto ko.Hindi bale sana kung di ako nagwowork at wala akong karapatan na magreklamo. Yun na nga to think youngest ako pero ano, ako lang yung nagwowork tas I don't feel appreciated by my own family.
Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, we often run to our friends, but the thing is narealize ko wala na rin akong matakbuhan dahil kahit ako, i feel so unconnected sa kanila.
Don't get me wrong may nalapitan akong isa. But the thing is while scrolling my cellphone while di pa nagrereply yung friend ko na sinabihan ko I felt like a stranger while scrolling names of people that I called "friends".
Now I really feel the urge to detach. To detach from my blurry "world"
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