Little Wonders

While running some scripts on SQL, Golden and Oracle, I was, again, looking outside through the window. In the middle of my bird watching (sa mga marurumi isip, totoong ibon yung tinutukoy ko) I was amazed with how the colors of the birds are perfectly crafted. I mean the design is so perfect.

This makes me appreciate the Creator more.

There are a lot of little wonders that we hardly notice. The colors of the birds, butterflies, the flowers and all the trees and animals. In these creations, we took inspirations to design clothes, cloths , furnitures, paintings and other arts and crafts. It is really quite amazing to think that the world is created perfectly once we learn to appreciate it.

And yeah, even the smell of broccolli is starting to be good...

A Little Conversation with Myself

After almost a day of looking and changing my layout..a serious post

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Jerson:So nailagay mo na sya sa lugar kung saan mo sya gustong mailagay, ano na ngayon?

Jersky:Hindi ko alam

Jerson:Hindi ba ito yung gusto mo? Mailagay sya sa position where napakadali na nyang saktan?

Jersky:Oo pero hindi ko alam kung gusto ko pang ituloy ito.

Jerson:Bakit nakokonsensya ka na?

Jersky:Hindi ko na alam

Jerson: Ito na ang chance mo para gumanti. Gawin mo na. Saktan mo sya.

Jersky: Kailangan ba talaga?

Jerson:Yan ang gusto mo, ilagay sya sa isang lugar kung saan hindi na sya makabitaw sa iyo at ilalaglag mo sya.

Jersky: Hindi ko ata kaya syang saktan. Hindi tama. Ayoko na ata.

Jerson. Bahala na.

Okay...i'm a schizo...

Something About The Weather

One interesting here at Winnipeg is the weather. Unlike in the Philippines, weather is one of the things that people here take seriously. You can actually start a conversation with a stranger with weather. Supposed to be its spring time and temperature should be starting to rise. But no, one day is freaking hot and the other days are sooo cold. Actually yesterday, it snowed but it was only flurries but what the heck, snow? They must be kidding me.

Coming from a country where there are only two season: wet and dry, dealing in with this kind of weather is really freakining.Unlike in the Philippines, if its is the cold season, it is really cold and if it is the hot season, it is really hot although with some exceptions of course especially when unexpected storms visited the country.

Although there is one thing Canadians and Filipinos are similar, Beach is always an option to escape the chaotic weather in the country. Well, for the case of Canadians, when it is cold they find a hot place and spend sometime at the beach and enjoying the sun. Hehehe.

Which Collision Are You?

Collide by Dishwalla

When I came here there was more.
Now I've come back to destroy,
and I've got nothing left,
and it's a shame what we've become,
when we hurt the ones we love,
and it's a place I can not go,
anymore.

When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
and as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
it's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
we break.

When the cold comes crashing down,
and the fight lost what it's about.
I could tell that you'd left.
It's a shame what we've become,
when we hurt the ones we love.
It's a place I can not go,
anymore.

When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
and as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
it's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
When we collide.

It's a hard mistake,
when we collide.

It's a mistake,
when we collide we lose ourselves,
when we collide we break in two,
and as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
it's a hard mistake,
when we collide,
when we collide.

It's a hard mistake,
when we collide, we break,
we break

VS

Collide by Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

***

Anyways, its really funny when finally you have that something you really want then all of a sudden you are now confused if you really want tjhat thing that you onced wanted badly.

I don't know maybe I was just bored right now because I'm not doing anything or I don't have my private space yet. We'll see on monday on what will happen.

The good thing though that they don't have expectation on me. Sigh... btw, my new name is JERSEN. freaking.

To Whom It May Concern

Clever boy
Think you are but you think too much
Shut down turn around
Dont look that way any more

Clever boy
Think you know but you dont know much
Try to make a move
Go to a different door

You know its all in your head
You better put that business to bed
By your fair hands of design you met with
The monster in your mind

You did it again
You did it again
Wont you listen to me when Im telling you its no good for you

Clever boy
Think youre right
But whats right from wrong?
Little mister genius
You make it hard on yourself

Clever boy
Youve got it all but youre all messed up
Time now turn around
Move onto something else

You know its all in your head
Youd better put that business to bed
What you see nobody sees
It only brings you to your knees

Clever boy
Think youre right
But whats right from wrong?
Little mister genius
You make it hard on yourself

*from Kylie Minogue's Did It Again.. changed some lyrics

First Day High

Before I begin my title is yuck. hehehe

Well, its my first day in my new work. It is actually ok except information overload.. pero I want to say...

THANK YOU GOD!!! DININIG MO NA RIN ANG MATAGAL KO NG PANALANGIN!! hihihi!

So figure it out kung ano yung nagpasaya sa akin ng sobra. hehehe

Hindi yung company itself...

HIndi yung benefits (which is wala kami kasi parang ojt lang)

Hulaan nyo na lang. hehehe

Few Things that I Missed

Sometimes, even when you are well adjusted you just miss somethings that you used to have..

I miss text-ing people. Either a personal one or a quote or maybe a joke. Kasi naman, text message here is not as popular as in the Philippines and hindi pa basic necessity ang cellphone.

I miss having dinner or talk over an expensive cup of coffee with friends. These were my stress reliever before. I really miss calling some friends and setting up a dinner or coffee when I'm feeling blue or just want to have someone to talk to. Although I have friends here and we usually go out to have coffee every friday, iba pa rin when you are having it with people who have established connection with you.

I miss the showbiz buzz in the Philippines. As jologs as it sounds but yes, I miss the latest and the ka-cheapan ng showbiz ng pinas. Hehehe. This is one of those things that you are so enticed of knowing and then telling it to others. Either you empathize, sympathize or just plain mang-okray.

For some strange reason I miss Enterprise.

I miss watching movies with dear old friends. I miss having the exchange of lait and watevers when watching a movie.

I miss the media people. I miss their pangungulit and their freebies.

I miss Starcom people. I miss the times when there were a lot of laughters, "chismis", the razor back buzz (wahahaha!), the inuman at the garden, the break time whenever we feel like having it, the "division", the sam milby and john llyod moments of Tin Te, the cry me a river of Jae, Ji's magreresign na ako momentS, Lea and Kate's endless battle, Bebs' "I love kuya" moments, and much more. Come to think of it, when I was there, everday there is laughter kahit once or twice a day.

I miss Meann.. terribly.

I miss S^2, I miss the "being true friends kaya I will lait you" moments.

Yay..Homesick attack..

Freaky Friday

I was in an interview earlier today. It was in a top company here in Canada and I was considered in the Finance department. Well, I was actually uncomfortable because I never do finance before.

We were first oriented by the human resource person then she told us that we will be interviewed by someone from the department that we are considered. Originally, she told me that I will be interviewed by the Finance CEO. "Oh ooh" I said to myself. "Why a CEO? Aren't there any supervisor or manager or something?"

So I was anxiously waiting for the CEO when someone came, I was sure the person is not the CEO because of the name. Fortunately, the person is the Finance manager.

Shitty! HANGKYUT!!!! hehehe. I mean sobrang distracted ako kasi super cute ng nag-iinterview sa akin. Tas ang eye contact sobrang nakakaconscious hehehe. Never pa akong na-interview at nadistract dahil cute ang interviewer hehehe! I am really looking forward na maka-work sya. Hihihihi!

No, we were not hired by the company but our work exposure and experience will be in the company. Meaning, we will be trained for 8 weeks and hopefully we will satisfy them and they will hire us. Yup ESIY will still pay for us. Ahahaha. But working or having our work exposure in that company is really a great privilege because of the credentials of the company. Sana nga lang makaya ko.

After our interview, we went back at ESIY and caught up with our team for the fun day. I thought our team will be fun because I used to have fun with them but I was wrong. Everyone was arguing and very competitive. We were running and walking along downtown to get into the place that was written in the instruction. Actually, my legs are hurting right now because of the running and walking that we did.

To make things worse, my allergy appeared again. While walking the streets of Winnipeg, I was so itchy and my arms were ugly because of the rashes that appeared. I was not wearing a jacket so somehow I figured that I might have allergies to pollen.

After we finished the tasks, we went to The Forks (some pictures will be uploaded soon) and spend time with some of our ESIY friends. I actually, spend time with my crushie hehehe.

Kamusta naman, kinda kinareer ko na talaga. Hehehe. Naakbayan na nya ako and the kinilig thing part was when nung hinawakan nya ako sa likod (hmm so Meann-ish hehehe)

It was quite sad that I am not going to attend our class in ESIY in tuesday because I'm starting with my work exposure. I will surely miss my groupmates. We've been together for more than a month and somehow friendships have been established. I will surely miss teasing and talking to Sudharshini, the sarcasms and jokes of Oksana, the laugh of Pankaj, Mohammed's very long explanations, Arjuna's reactions, Jainita's passion for cinnamon, Adeola's opinions, the small talks with Rhoda, Leonid's stuttering, Gisele's story, stephen's very bossy behaviour, Samson's jokes, the expired foods, Norman's assignmentS (emphasis on the s), Rosanne's activity, Bill's antics, Patti's struggle with names, Terry's interesting examples and the vending machine. Yup, it has been my home for the past 5 weeks and now it's my turn to leave. I never expected that I will be leaving soon. This will be one of my most memorable experiences in my life. Being in ESIY surely contributed a lot in my adjustments here in Canada and I'm looking forward to meeting my former group again.

Questions and Music

Rules:

1. Put your music player on shuffle. (any music player will do)
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.


1. How are you feeling today?
Don't Write Me Off Just Yet - Hugh Grant
->Harhar..pwede hehehe

2. Will you get far in life?
Walang Yaman ang hihigit Sa 'yo - Cueshe
->Di ko gets din actually hehehe

3. How do your friends see you?
Entering Bootytown - Haley Bennet
->What the???

4. Will you get married?
I - 6cyclemind
->Ay?? Pota!

5. What is your best friend's theme song?
Love Doesn't Have to Hurt - Atomic Kitten
->Wahahaha ganun?! Make sense. hehehe

6. What is the story of your life?
What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts
->TRUE!!! hehehe

7. What was high school like?
All Good Things - Nelly Furtado
->Pwede!!!

8. How can you get ahead in life?
Collide - Howie Day
->With whom?? I need to collide to get ahead in life..really now..

9. What is the best thing about your friends?
Mama Mia - Abba
-> Yup all I can say is Mama Mia! hahahah!

10. What is today going to be like?
2 Become 1 - Paul Gilbert
->Pota sex?!? hehehe sabagay gabi na rito hehehe

11. What is in store for this weekend?
Dancing Queen - Abba
-> WOOHOO! hehehe

12. What song Describes you?
Tell Me Where It Hurts - MYMP
-> You know this is becoming interesting hehehe

13. To describe your grandparents?
Its Ok - Atomic Kitten
-> Safe answer? hehehe

14. How is your life going?
I'm Moving On - Rascal Flatts
->Now really... my MP3 knows me well hahahaha

15. What song will they play at your funeral?
What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts
-> Na naman?? Consistent?? hehehe

16. How does the world see you?
Ikaw Ang Aking Mahal - Aiza Sequerra
->Does this means... the world loves me?? ahahaha

17. Will you have a happy life?
Ogie Alcasid Medley - Regine, Jaya and Lani
->OKAAAAY!!!!! WALANG SENSE HEHEHE

18. What do your friends really think of you?
Why - Rain
-> Okay... what do you mean why???

19. Do people secretly lust after you?
Irreplaceable - Beyonce Knowles
->WAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHHAHA!

20. How can I make myself happy?
Ain't No Other Man - Christina Aguilera
->Nice One! AIn't no other man can make myself happy! Nyahaha

21. What should you do with your life?
Last Goodbye - Atomic Kitten
->Ano ito suicide???

22.Will you ever have children?
I Melt - Rascal Flatts
-> Would I take that as a no?

Spiderman 3

Watched Spidey 3 a while a go.

Enjoyed it, loved it and wow-ed by it.

Memorable because its the first time that I watched a movie here in Winnipeg.

The best from the trilogy, for me.

Got more appreciation for Toby Maguire and Topher Grace.

The movie can do without Kirsten Dunst..kidding. Hehehe.

Slip of The Tongue

Yesterday morning at Student Lounge with groupmates:

Me:Hey *name of groupmate* I thought you were coming to the game yesterday?

Groupmate:Well i need to go home because I was waiting for a call

Lorena:Yeah, Jerson is waiting for you

Me:yeah..(suddenly realizes things) no!

Groupmates:Ooooh.. really?

Me: No, I was just asking...(to Lorena) sira ulo ka.

Groupmate smiled at me.

Actually, we are somehow getting closer..hehehe.

Of Bittersweet and Appreciation

Its quite sad that some of our groupmates at ESIY are leaving. ESIY have found them a full time jobs already. The sad part, these persons who are leaving are the persons closest to me. I didn't expect that yesterday morning would be the last time that me and Marichu would be riding the same bus in the morning. It was also the last time that we had our usual conversation of things and laughing and exchanging jokes to each other. It would be sad to walking alone on Arthur street. No more Marichu to bully,no more lunchmate and no more friend to share almost anything under the sun. I am happy that she finally found a job which suited her qualification and I hope all the best for her.

Gisele, also one close friend of mine, was also leaving the program. Like Marichu, ESIY also found a full time job for her. Norman, one of our instructor, asked all who are leaving to give their icebreaker speech. Gisele, did her speech and it was about her experiences, good and bad. She said that one of her bad experiences would be leaving the program and her friends. She mentioned my name and told the group about how we taught her our language and that she'll miss spending time with us. It touched my heart because the little things that I've done for her is being appreciated. For me, being appreciated is one of the greatest feelings that you'll ever feel. I will surely miss her. I only taught her one filipino songs and we haven't played the Sudoku game yet. Sad but again I'm really happy for her.

Adeola, also one of the participant, was also leaving. We became close these past few days, sharing ideas and all. Again, I'm quite sad that he's leaving and yet happy for him.

Marichu from the Philippines, Gisele from Ruanda and Adeola from Nigeria, all of them are my friends. Maybe one of my greatest experience in ESIY is having friends from different parts of the world and realizing that we are all just the same. I hope I can see them and talk with them again someday.

The Itch

Yikes got allergies and I don't know from where.

It started yesterday, when I feel this itchiness all over my body, rashes started to appear. I thought it just mosquito bites but there are still no mosquitoes here as of now.

Then while I was on the bathroom sitting on the john my left arm started to itch again. I thought its the usual itch so I scratched it. Et voila..rashes and more rashes appeared all over my body. The itch is very painful, like mahapdi na sya. I almost cry because of the itch. The weird thing I can't identify to which I'm allergic to. Sheesh.

I took 2 different kinds of antihistamine and it took an hour for the itch to subside and about 2 or 3 more hours for the rashes to somehow disappear..

Oh no..its getting itchy again..

Double Bladed Knife

Revenge...

I'm brewing my sweetest form of revenge. I know its bad. But sometime you just need to do it. I've been hurt for so many times and now its time for you to feel the same pain that I've been through.

I'll make you fall for me..fall for me so hard that I will be so addicting. I think I'm succeeding... you are starting to get addicted to me. When I feel that you are so into me I will inflict the pain..I'll crushed you.

This is my game and you are playing it right now. I'll make it sure that I will win this game. A game that is full of deception and lies. When you least expect it, I will stab you with the knife..

But its a double bladed one...

I know that It will also cut me. This revenge is also causing me pain. This is not good for me. Every cut that I made waw reverted to me. Its more of whenever I hurt you I am also hurting myself. I shouldn't be doing this but I just need you to realize the pain that you caused me. It is not easy to have a revenge to someone but sometimes you just need to do it..

I'm sorry but I need to do this..