Spring is really here.
Snow are starting to melt. Temperature is starting to rise. The new season is here.
Last night, I had a dream, I flew back in the Philippines without my family's knowledge. I went back to work at Starcom and I live my usual life back there. Then I came back to my senses. I'm still at my bed, here at Canada.
I then realized some things. How can I start living my life here if I'm stil attached to the life that I left behind? All I do is rant about not liking it here and the passion for me to go home, back in the Philippines. There is nothing more that I can do. I'm here, literally stuck in here. How passionate I might be, there is no way that I can go back right now, just for now. I just need to accept the fact that I'm here and all I can do is to live my life here. Part of that, is letting go of my past. Letting go of the life that I used to have. So maybe I might not communicate with some people from my past for now, so that I can live my life here. So as early as now, I apologize to those people who will send an email, I might not reply to some of you for now. I really just need to do this.
Like the snow that is slowly melting, I'm letting go..
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RANDOM SHITS:
-> Even before, I find myself as an avid viewer of the Ellen Degeneres Show. Whenever I had the chance to watch it, I watched the show. Right now, I'm a big fan of Ellen. I even watched her old sitcom Ellen. I really find her funny. I guess her talk show is the only american talk show that I watched because of Ellen. I mean I usually find myself absorbed with Ellen's blabbering even if sometimes it is nonesense but funny. Unlike Maury or Oprah(sometimes..uhm I rarely watched this) that I watched the show because of the topics on that episodes. Ellen is also not pretentious unlike uhm well..Tyra Banks in the Tyra Banks Show. hehehe.
-> I've watched My Bestfriend's Wedding (again) yesterday, wala lang I just can't get tired of the movie.
-> I've finally watched Legally Blonde last friday, I have seen the sequel but I never got the chance to watch the first one until last friday.
-> I still don't understand why people in the Maury show made an extra effort to go to the show just to humiliate themselves. I mean ok I understand the paternity and lie detector test, its quite expensive but to go to the show just to reveal a secret, like cheating or being a prostitute and stuff? I mean can't you just talk it over in the privacy of their own home? Maybe its for fame and I guess some dollars.
-> I'm quite happy that Meann and I are still in contact thru email almost everyday. Two weeks na Meann! ahahaha.
Snow are starting to melt. Temperature is starting to rise. The new season is here.
Last night, I had a dream, I flew back in the Philippines without my family's knowledge. I went back to work at Starcom and I live my usual life back there. Then I came back to my senses. I'm still at my bed, here at Canada.
I then realized some things. How can I start living my life here if I'm stil attached to the life that I left behind? All I do is rant about not liking it here and the passion for me to go home, back in the Philippines. There is nothing more that I can do. I'm here, literally stuck in here. How passionate I might be, there is no way that I can go back right now, just for now. I just need to accept the fact that I'm here and all I can do is to live my life here. Part of that, is letting go of my past. Letting go of the life that I used to have. So maybe I might not communicate with some people from my past for now, so that I can live my life here. So as early as now, I apologize to those people who will send an email, I might not reply to some of you for now. I really just need to do this.
Like the snow that is slowly melting, I'm letting go..
*****
RANDOM SHITS:
-> Even before, I find myself as an avid viewer of the Ellen Degeneres Show. Whenever I had the chance to watch it, I watched the show. Right now, I'm a big fan of Ellen. I even watched her old sitcom Ellen. I really find her funny. I guess her talk show is the only american talk show that I watched because of Ellen. I mean I usually find myself absorbed with Ellen's blabbering even if sometimes it is nonesense but funny. Unlike Maury or Oprah(sometimes..uhm I rarely watched this) that I watched the show because of the topics on that episodes. Ellen is also not pretentious unlike uhm well..Tyra Banks in the Tyra Banks Show. hehehe.
-> I've watched My Bestfriend's Wedding (again) yesterday, wala lang I just can't get tired of the movie.
-> I've finally watched Legally Blonde last friday, I have seen the sequel but I never got the chance to watch the first one until last friday.
-> I still don't understand why people in the Maury show made an extra effort to go to the show just to humiliate themselves. I mean ok I understand the paternity and lie detector test, its quite expensive but to go to the show just to reveal a secret, like cheating or being a prostitute and stuff? I mean can't you just talk it over in the privacy of their own home? Maybe its for fame and I guess some dollars.
-> I'm quite happy that Meann and I are still in contact thru email almost everyday. Two weeks na Meann! ahahaha.
3 comments:
we all go through that when changes happen. mas matakot ka kung di ka nahomesick. makakaadjust ka rin soon and homesickness will surely be lessened. i had a similar dream when i first lived abroad pero you'll slowly get used to the life there. of course you'll always miss the philippines but for now, make the most out of your stay in canada. your real home and friends will surely welcome you with open arms anytime in the future.:)
starting a new life doesnt mean you have to forget us. :) at magreply ka pa rin noh!:P
Uhm Read between the line kasi no, la ako sinabi na forget tsaka hindi ako nakareply kahapon kasi di ako makagamit ng pc
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