Counting Down the Days

It is really sad to leave especially when you are enjoying the company you are with.

Hindi ko ba alam, lagi na lang ganun, the happiest time would be the last few moments before you leave. These are the moments that will make you feel sad to go.

Masaya kami ngayon, especially our division. The people who I thought I'll never get along with are the same people na nakakasama ko ngayon. These people are the same people that I'm going to miss when I'm gone.

Only 25 days left before my last day.

Starting Today

by Natalie Imbruglia

Starting today I'm not gonna waste another moment
Even if I had the chance before I would have blown it
But you took me by surprise
And you caught me just in time

Everyday you give me reason not to walk away
I stop believing that the world's gone crazy
And if it is you'll save me

Starting today I'm not gonna worry about tomorrow
I'll wash away all this fear that's left me feeling hollow
Cause you made me want to try
And you caught me just in time

Everyday you give me reason not to walk away
I'll stop believing I should burn like crazy
Cos if I did you chase me

Anyway, I should have told you
So many times
That I shyed away
Somehow you always seem to
Be there, making it easy
And you give me reason to stay

Everyday, Everyday, Everyday
Oh everyday I'll stop believing that I should burn like crazy
Cos if I did you chase me
Anyway you give me reason not to walk away
I stop believing that the world's gone crazy
And if it is you'll save me

Starting today I'm not gonna waste another moment...

*For Kulet.=)

A Very Makulet Day

Magka text kami sa umaga.

Magka email kami sa hapon.

Magka ym kami sa gabi.

Kamusta naman hehehe.

Hindi pumapalya. Kahit sobrang ngarag ako napapa-smile pa rin nya ako.:)

One Saturday Morning

Nagising ako sa malakas na katok sa pinto ng kwarto ko.

Hindi agad ako bumangon. Sa isip ko maraming tanong ang pumasok.

"Lunes na ba? Bakit ako ginigising ng ganitong kaaga ng Sabado?"

Ayokong gumising. Ayokong bumangon. Ano bang reason para gumising ng sabado ng umaga.

Pagod ako. Ayokong gumising.

Patuloy ang malakas na pagkatok sa aking kwarto.

Aargh. Ayokong gumising. Maaga pa. Sabado ngayon. Pahinga ko.

Tuloy tuloy pa rin ang pagkatok, ngunit ngayon kasabay na ang malakas na boses ng aking ina at tinatawag ang pangalan ko.

Oo na sige na. Gigising na ako matapos lang ang pambubulahaw sa aking pagkakahimbing.

Pagbukas ko ng pinto. Doon tumambad sa akin ang balita.

Patay na ang tiyuhin ko.

The Start of Goodbyes

Today, I'm tendering my resignation to Starcom...

I started to say goodbyes to my friends.

Nararamdaman ko na malapit na ang pag-alis ko.

Leaving on A Jet Plane

And I don't know when I'll be back again...

Yup got my visa last week and...

I'm leaving on MARCH 8, 2007.

The Day After

Wala na sya.

Yup last day na nya kahapon. Last time na rin namin magsabay umuwi. I really hate walking with people lalo na pag last time na. There is a sad feeling na hindi mo ma-enjoy yung last time na yun.

Anyways, buti na lang hindi ako umiyak, or siguro wala ring moment para umiyak.

Alam ko naman na magkikita at magkaka-usap pa naman kami.

Life should go on kahit deep inside malungkot ako...

Password Please

Last thursday, for some strange reason hindi ko matandaan ang password ng email ko. Nagpalit kasi ako the night before. Kaya yun, hindi ko natandaan kung ano yung ipinalit ko. I called our IT and after a series of verification napalitan na rin ang password ko.

Then came friday, yung password ko naman sa network ang nakalimutan ko. Same scenario, nagpalit ako ng password the night before and again nakalimutan ko na naman sya. So kahit hiyang hiya na ako sa IT tumawag uli ako. Akala ko tapos na yung dilemma ko but no, nakalimutan ko uli yung password ko sa email. Syempre tumawag uli ako sa it..Grabe kahiya.

I'm not usually mahina with passwords pero as I said there is something wrong with me nung past week.

Last day na nya today...

Ground Zero

"Kami nina Ken and Jae, ayaw namin sa iyo dati, eventually ok ka naman pala."

One of his statements that crushed me last night.

Again I'm starting to believe that work place is no place for making friends. Yeah I know, there is the "eventually ok ka naman pala" But knowing that it came from those people that you think your comfort zone during that time, I really feel deceived. Bringing back the paranoia that I've learned to let go. I'm really hurt right now.

I also hate the fact that your personality is judged by a single phrase that you've said unintentionally. I know its wrong to say "Starcom is a bobo job". Wrong choice of words. I just want to explain that I feel that I can't use what I've studied for four years and I don't have any sense of growth regarding work. Yes as I said, I admit I was wrong to say that and I apologized already but to judge me and my perceptions based on that simple phrase?

Please stop acting as if you know me. I don't know if that is ego or what, you can't always be right. I have my own principles and I look life in a different way. I have faith in people, I usually try to look for something good in a person. For your case, I thought I saw something good but maybe I'm wrong.

I'm back at zero right now and yes you crushed me again.

Btw, stupidest is also accepted.

Give Me More Work

I have just this need to do more work.. Need more time to stay here at the office. Maybe to waste myself up so that when I go home I will have no time to think of anything but sleep. I don't want to drown into this depression that I'm feeling.I need to keep my mind on other things. Funny, I don't have anything to do. I need work. I need some reason to stay late.

I'm actually losing my mind.

Strike 2

Nagmukha ka na namang tanga dyan.

Tanga...

Tanga..

Tanga...

Wake up Jerson.

Wake up from this stupidity.

Di Na Natuto

Ang laki kasi ng problema mo...

Hindi ka na nadala...

Pinaghintay ka na naman nya sa wala. Pwede naman kasi na iabot mo na lang yung kailangan nya. Hindi naman kasi assurance na sasabayan ka nyang umuwi. Ayan tuloy naghintay ka sa wala. Hindi ka naman kasi dapat umasa. Nagpapaka-martir ka dyan. Ikaw pa tuloy yung mag-aadjust dahil dun sa in-ask nyang favor. Nagpaka-tanga ka na naman kasi. Umuwi ka ng late ng mag-isa at wala ka pang napala.

Pero wala ka rin namang magagawa... mahal mo kasi.

***

Last Monday night, nagbonding kami nina Ma'am Becca at Macris sa Starbucks Katipunan. Nakakatuwa lang. we had so much fun and napag-usapan ang mga bagay bagay na nakakagaan ng loob pag inilabas.

I really need this especially these days...

Sa Mga Nagtatanong

Oo.. malungkot ako.

Oo heartbroken ako.

Pero hanggang dun na lang iyon.

May mga bagay na siguro not meant to be lang talaga.

Hindi ako bitter. Masaya ako na close friend ko pa rin sya. Wala naman syang alam. Masaya ako para sa kanya. Alam ko matagal na rin nyang hinihintay iyon.

Masaya ako para sa kanya, malungkot ako para sa sarili ko....

Start of End

I know..Aalis na sya.. Malapit ng matapos yung story....

Pero dahil sa nalaman ko...Patapos na talaga...

Random '07

** I never imagined that majority of my things today are branded. Branded in terms of Media names, such as Philippine Star flash disk, Inquirer and Magic jacket, AXN mouse, Bulgar bag, Star notebook, Monster Radio planner, Cartoon Network tumbler etc.. Kamusta naman di ba, I'm so into media hehehe.

** I have a new crushie hehehehe! Ang bango shitie! hehehe=)

** Hay kinda sad na yung mga original tropa ko rito sa Starcom ay unti unti ng nawawala sigh...

** I think effective yung ginagawa kong approach towards kay Kulet. Actually nakakatulong din sa akin yung ginagawa ko.

** I really hope maging positive ang results ng application ng mga Statsocers dito sa Starcom para tiba tiba kami sa lunch out hehehe (di ba Cham and Gen?)=)

** Mukhang dalawa lang kami ni Meann matutuloy sa beach thingy namin. Oh well medyo hayok na kami sa beach kaya go pa rin! hehehe.

** I have a new crushie! hehehehe;P

Welcome 2007

Maganda ang pasok ng 2007 sa akin. December 31 pa lang masaya na. Katext ko si Kulet. As in sobrang kulet hehehe.

Tapos nung January 1, na Super Great Job pa ang team namin ng boss namin. Ok naman ang launch ng Enervon di ba? hehehe. Syempre Kulet to complete the New year greetings.

New year meaning new beginnings na naman.

Marami akong changes na gustong mangyari sa buhay ko...

1.) Magkaroon ng sense of self worth. Tama na yung pagsisintir sa mga taong hindi naman ako pinapahalagahan.

2.) Be happy! Enjoy everything in life. Wala ring mangyayari kung puro angst and lungkot ang ieexude kong aura. Make the most out of life kumbaga.

3.) Be less evil.. hehehe pero syempre dapat may konti akong dapat itira.

4.) Pangatawanan ang sinasabi. Kung sinabi kong maguupdate ako weekly ng blog..mag-uupdate ako, example lang naman yun.

5.) Kung pangit ang pag-eenglish ko, magtatagalog na lang ako.. Wahehehe

6.) Titigilan na ang pagpapanggap, yung feeing virginal pero hindi bwahahahaha! (according sa officemate hehehe)

Yun na lang muna.

Chow!(according sa chatmate ni Meann hehehe)=)