Gone

Again, I was taken by surprise...

Yesterday, I was pissed off with my manager for not allowing me to get out of the office at exactly 5pm. "Heads up" daw. For pete's sake, pati ba naman yung paghalf day ko ng monday ay gusto pang isumbat sa akin given di naman ako nadedelay ever sa mga deadlines ko except for our latest work na madugo. Well maybe it was fault if I haven't finished a single category since I was so depressed yesterday. So hindi natuloy yung lakad namin nina Meann na umattend sa graduation.

So while still doing the task that I know I won't be able to finish that night, I saw a familiar face, nagovertime din si Sungit. I told myself, sasabayan ko sya sa pag-uwi ngayon no matter what even if it is the last thing that I will do.

Nauna sya sa akin lumabas sa lobby, heck di ko pa rin tinapos yung pinapagawa. Then nakita ko na may bitbit syang rice cooker, yung napanalunan nya sa christmas party ng department namin, medyo nagduda na ako dun. Then the biggest shock, sinurrender na nya ang ID nya sa guard "for hr" sabi nya. Yesterday was his last day in the office. Like what, thursday ko lang nalaman na nagresign pala sya.

Kahit paano nakausap ko pa rin sya for the last time, nakapaggoodbye sya sa akin for the last time pero ako hindi ko na nagawa. I tried to fake a smile nung nag-uusap kami. For the last time, nakasabay ko syang maglakad going to edsa, although may iba syang kasabay na kaclose nya, ok na sa akin yung nakasabay ko sya and again he waved goodbye.

I never knew that last thursday ang huling time na makakasabay ko sya sa cr...to think I planned to avoid him pa..

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako makakapag-adjust sa mga pagbabago. Maninibago ako, hahanap hanapin ko sya...

Going to office is starting to be dull again..

Another heartbreak for me... I never believed in loving someone na hindi mo pa masyadong kakilala but again I fall...

I still feel depressed right now, more than ever..

After nun at after ng kinuwento sa akin ni Cess, parang gusto kong magpasalamat sa manager ko who stopped me from attending the graduation and letting me stay in the office or else magugulat na lang ako sa monday na wala na sya.

Goodbye diazal01...I'll truly miss you. I hope our path will meet again someday...