The Sign

I saw it..

Yesterday sa elevator...

Girl Teammate:Baka naman dahil naging seatmate mo lang ako kaya ayaw mo na?
Sungit:*smile,slightly blushing*
Guy Teammate:Sabi naman,si Kat na daw kasi manager nya kaya ayaw nya na.Daming speculations no?heheh
Sungit:*smile, still blushing*

After hearing that conversation, para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig.

Before the jaded mode of mine, I asked God to give me a sign if may patutunguhan ba yung whatever na nafefeel ko para sa kanya. I know from the very beginning,the time when this was all a crush thing,it is an impossible thing. Suntok sa buwan in other words. Langit sya, lupa ako. But the thing is I do believe in miracles, maybe this is my miracle, maybe sya ang miracle ko.

But I think I got my sign.

I know, I have this I will not pursue this feelings and I should be happy because he'll be gone but yet the feeling of sadness is all over me right now. Before Sungit, going to the office is very dreading but when I met Sungit, there is always something to look forward to everyday but I guess pag wala na sya, I'll be back in those dreadful days. To think sya pa yung sign na inask ko if I'll stay in this company tas sya yung aalis.

I don't know if have been bad or what, almost lahat na lang ng nagiging kaclose ko sa office na ito, nawawala. Nakakatamad na tuloy.

I hope hindi pa final...I hope mali lang yung interpretation ko sa mganarinig ko.

For now, just let me feel this depression...